Calendula

Tsubaki

umarete ochita saisho kara sou minna to chigau
dekisokonai sonna kotoba kikazatte
jinsei hora ganbatte mo todoki wa shinai
sore demo ne negatteshimau nda
mou ikiru kiryoku mo nakute
dareka dareka boku wo hora hoshigatte te wo kakete

karendyura no sono kotoba kubi ni maki tsuite
kono hidari mune no itami keshite yo
boku wo sukuu yo tte iki wo tomeru ndatte
issho de ikkai itsuka umarekawaru no?

minna dōshite rakushō ni sa iki teru ndarou
dekisokonai sonna kotoba kiki akita yo
onnaji sekai ikireru toka mō omowanai
sore demo ne negatte baka ikada mō
sōda iki wo tometara
dareka dareka boku no naka sōzō shite kurerukana

karendyura kimi no sono te kubi ni maki tsuite
kono hidari mune no itami keshite yo
kimi to onnaji datte kurushinde itan datte
isshō de ikkai itsuka rikai sareru no
rikai sareru no?

yakeru taiyō made boku wo kiratte iru
tsumadzuite koron de aa shikatanai na
chanto itai ya shinu yūki mo nai

yasashī kimi no sono te furi haratta no
dare yori jibun wa jibun wo shitteru yo

kore ijō ikiru koto ga iya ni naru no nara
dare-tomo mō hanasanakute mo ī
sekai ga toji tatte betsu ni kamawanainda yo
isshōgai no kyō ai wa jibun ni ageru no

Tsubaki

Born to fall, different from everyone else from the start
Failure is the word for me to dress up in
Life won’t let you reach no matter how hard you try
But still I can’t help wishing
No spirit to live
someone, someone want me and lay hands on me

Calendula, Let the chords wrap around my neck
And make the pain in my heart go away
Tell me you’ll save me and stop my life
Once in a lifetime, I will born again someday.

Why does life seem like a piece of cake for everyone else?
Failure is the word I’m tired of hearing
I no longer think that I’d be able to live in the same world
But still I can’t help wishing how pathetic I am
What if I stopped my breath,
will someone, someone notice me?

Calendula, Let the hands wrap around my neck
And make the pain in my heart go away
Tell me "I'm just like you and I’ve been in pain, too"
Once in a lifetime, will I be understood someday?

Even the scorching sun hates me
I stumble and fall ah, can’t help it
I do feel the pain and don’t even have the strength to die

I shook off your tender hand
I know myself more than anyone else

If I get even more tired of living,
I no longer need to talk to anyone
I don’t really care if the world ends
Today is only once in a lifetime it's time to treat myself.^[3]