After Pain (アフターペイン?) is a song from MILGRAM project, created by DECO*27 and performed by Kusunoki Mu (Kouri Arisa).
It was added into the game with a limited period as a part of collab between the game and MILGRAM.
Game Info
| ALL INFO LISTED BELOW ARE IN MANUAL MODE | ||||
|---|---|---|---|---|
| Servers |  
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BPM | 137 | |
| EASY | 3 | 184 | Yamajet | |
| NORMAL | 6 | 323 | Yamajet | |
| HARD | 10+ | 486 | Yamajet | |
| EXPERT | 12+ | 740 | Yamajet | |
Video
Lyrics
私がいなくなれば 消えればよかったの
もう聞いちゃった 知っちゃった
こんなにも 私はいらない
特別意味はないの ハズレを引いたの
もう聞いちゃった 知っちゃった
こんなにも 私はいらない
ねえなんで痛-痛-痛いのやめてくれないの？
乾いちゃってどうしたら
ごめんの魔法はきっと 聞き飽きちゃったんだね
でもたぶん私も悪いところはあるからさ
これできっといいのかも
「生きてる」を感じたいよ 息してもいいのかな
教えて
「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ （いつか届くかな）
「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ （いつか届くかな）
「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ （いつか届くかな）
「ごめんなさい」は届かないよ
痛みの中で会いましょう 私だけの居場所
心隠す死化粧 解き方は内緒
悪魔の声による刺傷 返す刃は遺書
「『あなた』が好きよ」
でもたぶん私も悪いところはあるからさ
これできっといいのかも
「生きてる」を感じたいよ 息してもいいのかな
教えて
「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？ （いつか聞こえるかな）
「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？ （いつか聞こえるかな）
「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？ （いつか聞こえるかな）
「ごめんなさい」が聞こえないよ？
私がいなくなれば 消えればよかったの
もう聞いちゃった 知っちゃった
こんなにも私はいらない
Watashi ga inakunareba kiereba yokatta no
Mou kiichatta shicchatta
Konna ni mo watashi wa iranai
Tokubetsu imi wa nai no hazure wo hiita no
Mou kiichatta shicchatta
Konna ni mo watashi wa iranai
Nee nande ita-ita-itai no yamete kurenai no?
Kawaichatte doushitara
Gomen no mahou wa kitto kikiakichattanda ne
Demo tabun watashi mo warui tokoro wa aru kara sa
Kore de kitto ii no kamo
"Ikiteru" wo kanjitai yo iki shite mo ii no kana
Oshiete
"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)
"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)
"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo (Itsuka todoku kana)
"Gomennasai" wa todokanai yo
Itami no naka de aimashou Watashi dake no ibasho
Kokoro kakusu shinigeshou Hodokikata wa naisho
Akuma no koe ni yoru shishou Kaesu yaiba wa isho
"'Anata' ga suki yo"
Demo tabun watashi mo warui tokoro wa aru kara sa
Kore de kitto ii no kamo
"Ikiteru" wo kanjitai yo iki shite mo ii no kana
Oshiete
"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo (Itsuka kikoeru kana)
"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo (Itsuka kikoeru kana)
"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo (Itsuka kikoeru kana)
"Gomennasai" ga kikoenai yo
Watashi ga inakunareba kiereba yokatta no
Mou kiichatta shicchatta
Konna ni mo watashi wa iranai
If I was gone, If I had just disappeared
I overheard, I found out
How much I'm not needed
There's no special meaning, I got the short end of the stick
I overheard, I found out
How much I'm not needed
Why won't you stop hurt-hurt-hurting me?
My heart is all dried up
My sorry spells must be wearing off
But I guess some of it is my fault
Maybe it's ok as it is
I want to feel "alive", is it ok if I breathe?
Tell me
"I'm sorry" won't reach anyone (I hope it will someday)
"I'm sorry" won't reach anyone (I hope it will someday)
"I'm sorry" won't reach anyone (I hope it will someday)
"I'm sorry" won't reach anyone
Let's meet up inside the pain, a place just for me
Postmortem makeup to hide my heart, how to solve it is a secret
The stabbing of the little devil's voice, counterattack being a suicide note
"I love YOU"
But I guess some of it is my fault
Maybe it's ok as it is
I want to feel "alive", is it ok if I breathe?
Tell me
"I'm sorry" can't be heard by anyone (I hope it will be someday)
"I'm sorry" can't be heard by anyone (I hope it will be someday)
"I'm sorry" can't be heard by anyone (I hope it will be someday)
"I'm sorry" can't be heard by anyone
If I was gone, If I had just disappeared
I overheard, I found out
How much I'm not needed