These were complicated feelings
At first, I hated people
Then I was wishing for their misfortune
I don't think I can be forgiven
I spewed spiteful words
And slandered people as well
At what point I lost myself?
I was corrupted, worthy of pity
If there was nothing for me to regret,
I wouldn't be writing "This is my regret"
In this record of my depressing voyage
Please!
I had dreams that would never come true
And told lies beyond my control
Can't you rescue the sinking ship I overestimated?
Please!
Thinking "I'm done", I tried to throw my life away
Saying "I've had enough", distress signals seemed to roll down these cheeks
Can somebody notice
The CQCQ signal that I've sent?
Those were ungrateful feelings
This is the punishment I should receive
Since I used people as mere stepping stones
And lacked even a piece of compassion for them
Alone, I said to myself
"Don't care for anyone but you"
Had I kept following those thoughts
The depths of my heart would be torn apart
(I can't be helped... I am... I am...)
If I could overwrite all this by tomorrow, on another day
Today, I would throw away this day into a drain
My future is being blown away by a raging wind
It's like this
No matter how I struggle and look forward, my dreams are going away
No matter how I struggle and set my sails, all I see are lies
The ghost ship named utopia will sink
And that's why!
Thinking "I'm done", I tried to throw my life away
I've dropped true self when I received the distress call
That ran down my cheeks when I felt "I've had it enough."
Suddenly, finally, it's about to be drown out
Can anybody hear my CQCQ?
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